My last post on this blog was nearly six months ago on my birthday. There are a lot of reasons I haven’t written here since then (I’ve been writing a lot here, I got distracted by a boy, etc) but they are mostly excuses. This post is the first in a series that is documentation of my internal struggles – so I don’t forget where I’ve been.
Last week, I got dumped. It didn’t come as a particular surprise to me. All in all, it was more of an injury to my pride than my heart. As my family likes to point out, I’m usually the one doing the dumping, so I probably needed a bit of a reality-check anyways.
On Saturday morning, I met two friends for breakfast. Naturally we talked a lot about relationships and how our previous attempts at them have gone wrong. One of my friends brought up getting her “cards read.” Friend #2’s reaction was that clearly Tarot cards should not have anything to do with relationships. My reaction was the very sudden memory of the last time I got MY cards read…
In early 2009 I was in a relationship that was falling apart. My mother and aunt are frequent customers of one particular reader here in New Orleans, so I traveled downtown one weekend morning and ended up forking over $20 for her services. It might have been the best $20 I spent that year. Unfortunately I ignored most of what she said about my relationship situation, but that’s a story for another day.
The one thing that DID stick out to me during our session was a card she pulled when talking about who I am. It was the Queen of Wands, also sometimes called the Queen of Rods.
I spent a lot of time thinking about what she told me about this card, and later looked it up online. I gathered information and posted it in a Facebook note on January 31st, 2009. Here is an unedited copy of my post from 2009:
Queen of Wands
The astrological sign for the Queen of Wands is Leo. This is a woman who is honorable and well-liked and fond of her home. Other adjectives to describe this person might be: fun-loving, proud, honest, aloof, impulsive, determined, loyal and generous.
A very generous, capable and fair person especially in her dealings with people. A woman who is both fertile in mind and body and a homemaker. She enjoys social ease due to her charm and is protective towards those in her circle.
She’s self-assured, and walks with the confidence that she knows exactly what she is doing. Always attractive in the classic sense, she has a way of bringing her enthusiasm to everyone she comes in contact with. No matter what the task ahead, she tackles it with wholehearted dedication. Her life is full and busy, and she prefers it that way. She loves to be going and doing. She keeps up this pace because she is radiantly healthy and fit. She is often a good athlete, being naturally strong and coordinated.
Although she’s never arrogant, the Queen of Wands has a deep faith in her own abilities. Her quiet self-assurance comes from the knowledge that she can accomplish whatever she sets her mind to.
Even the Queen of Wands is not invincible, though from her general outlook on life she might seem to be, and she definitely believes she is. She always has to be on the move, and she will not tolerate anything that makes her stay somewhere for longer than she wants to. Often she takes others’ problems into her own hands to see them solved more quickly, and in fragile situations this can cause more problems than it solves. In general, she would make a great friend, but a very dangerous enemy.
Having these qualities within yourself might seem a little dangerous too, but everyone has a bit of the Queen of Wands inside them. When she appears it is often time to bring these qualities into manifestation in your life. Her constancy and dedication will surely be an aid if you have a creative vision that needs to be carried out, and her innate magnetism will draw to you all the allies and friends that you need. If people call on your strength then be ready to give it; if people ask your guidance, do not hesitate to speak your mind. Engage tough issues with all your might, and do not relent until the day is won.
Thinking about the “new year” this weekend, I spent some time thinking about the Queen of Wands again. 2011 was a year of wandering for me. In contrast, I think for me, 2012 will be a Year of the Wand.